Archive for November, 2008

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I just have so much to be thankful for

November 25, 2008

The envelope please…The scan results are in and they are mixed. YES there is new growth, but not enough to radiate, and since I have no significant pain, we are letting it ride. But my Doc is not taking a wait and see approach, there is a change in my chemo, I am done with CMF and on a 5FU in pill form.

This will give me the mobility to visit the USA in December. I am thrilled to be able to have the freedom to move around with out switching out my routine. This is ideal  to get me use to the new medicine, before the holiday season. Two weeks on and one week with no medicine. Basically a 21 day cycle.

I AM THANKFUL for having a pill form of chemo. 

The ability to visit my Mother in December

The accountability to prepare for the side affects.

The strength of character not to impose my problems on others.

The ability to research about my new chemo.

But most of all I am thankful for my friends sending my good vibes.

Love you

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Just when your having a bad day

November 18, 2008

I get not just one e-mail’s but two from my favorite famous uncle. Nothing more than a slide show presentation about nature and the other images of friendship.

I woke up at some ungodly hour with a drippy nose followed by a child that did not want to go back to sleep at 5am and it is still dark outside. No convincing her that if the sun is sleeping so should small children. But it was not until my loveofmylife chimed in with a list of complaints about last night’s babysitter not washing the pans out properly and not vacuuming the floor that I lost it. I truly blew a fuse. I starting screaming at the top of my lungs at 9am about his late night meetings and how he has no room to talk because he is never around to see how much work has already been done.

There must be a cultural difference of how dirty you can leave a pan and hope that the dishwasher will clean it all up for you. Needless to say it has been a bad day, a day you threaten your partner with walking away from the situation.  Fantasizing about running away and becoming a  waitress in a diner on route 66.

But I digress. I got these lovely two e-mails that perked me right up and sent my thoughts in the direction of how good we as a family have it, if we are only talking about a few pieces of rice left inside a pan, and some crumbs on the floor. Did I forget to mention I have terminal cancer?

Thank you Favorite uncle.

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She is really a little girl now

November 16, 2008

That was the shocking comment from our friends we have not seen since the spring. We finally got together for pancakes, and really noticed how grown up my LoveBug is.

We love their home, a large brownstone in the middle of a rich suburb of Amsterdam. They are waiting out their time to become grandparents, and are crazy about my little 3 year old girl. She had a blast playing with barbies and a beauty salon where she could get other barbies to blow dry and style the hair.

My little one has just gone to the hairdresser herself, and like any 3 year old the baby phase is over and so are the beautiful ringlet curls. I had the beautician save them for me.  One small lock will go to my mother as a keepsake.

We are in count down mode. only four weeks until we touch down on American soil. I’m wondering if we are going to see the economic crunch personally. Hear friends and family members recognize differences. We will also stay until the new year, and watch the ball drop in time square.

Who knows what the new year will bring. I’m watching my girl grow leaps and bounds. I still have to get through Thanksgiving, St. Nicolas, and many lonely nights as my hubby has to put in more hours to compensate for the early kick off date to leave for Christmas vacation.  With a financial budget that needs to be solidified, it is a monumental task.

I guess we are all growing.

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true landmark in cancer research

November 6, 2008

Cancer genetic blueprint revealed

Leukaemia cells
Leukaemia targets cells in bone marrow which form blood

Scientists have decoded the complete DNA of a cancer patient and traced her disease to its genetic roots.

The Washington University team identified 10 gene mutations which appeared key to the development of the woman’s acute myeloid leukaemia.

Just two of these had been linked to the disease before.

The sequencing technique, described in the journal Nature, could be applied to other cancers and aid the design of targeted drugs.

This achievement ushers in a new era of comprehensive understanding of the fundamental nature of cancer
Dr Francis Collins
Geneticist

The researchers took two samples from the woman in her 50s – who later died from the disease – and examined the DNA for differences.

One sample was taken from healthy skin cells, the other from bone marrow tissue made up of cancerous cells.

They found that virtually every cell in the tumour sample had nine of the key mutations.

Like most cancers, acute myeloid leukaemia (AML) – a cancer of blood-forming cells in the bone marrow – arises from mutations that accumulate in people’s DNA over the course of their lives.

However, little is known about the precise nature of those changes and how they disrupt biological pathways to cause the uncontrolled cell growth that is the hallmark of cancer.

Previous efforts to decode individual human genomes have looked at common points of DNA variation that may be relevant for disease risk.

In contrast the Washington team, using a gene sequencing technique, were able to sift through the three billion pairs of chemical bases that make up the human genome to pull out the mutations that contributed to the patient’s cancer.

True landmark

Geneticist Dr Francis Collins, a former director of the US National Human Genome Research Institute, called the study a “true landmark in cancer research”.

This is a very important piece of research, not only for our understanding of leukaemia but for many other types of cancer
Kat Arney
Cancer Research UK

He said: “In the past, cancer researchers have been ‘looking under the lamp-post’ to find the causes of malignancy – but now the team from Washington University has lit up the whole street.

“This achievement ushers in a new era of comprehensive understanding of the fundamental nature of cancer, and offers great promise for the development of powerful new approaches to diagnosis, prevention and treatment.”

Three of the newly-discovered mutations were in genes that normally suppress tumour growth, and four were in genes linked to the spread of cancer.

The other appears to affect the transport of drugs into the cells, possibly fuelling resistance to cancer therapy.

The researchers are still looking for other gene mutations which may also play a part.

They also examined tumour samples from another 187 AML patients, but found none had any of the eight new mutations.

Lead researcher Dr Richard Wilson said: “This suggests that there is a tremendous amount of genetic diversity in cancer, even in this one disease.

“There are probably many, many ways to mutate a small number of genes to get the same result, and we’re only looking at the tip of the iceberg in terms of identifying the combinations of genetic mutations that can lead to AML.”

The researchers suspect that the mutations occurred one after another, with each pushing the cell closer to malignancy.

Kat Arney, of the charity Cancer Research UK, said: “This is a very important piece of research, not only for our understanding of leukaemia but for many other types of cancer.

“Thanks to advances in technology it is now possible to unlock the genetic secrets within cancer cells, which will be the key to better diagnostic tools and treatments in the future.”

Ken Campbell, of Leukaemia Research said: “Although it is very early days, it is realistic to think that these findings could lead to new treatments.

“Its wider application to other cancers may be limited though – the technique is particularly valuable for blood cancers in which the chromosome changes are usually simpler than in solid tumours at the time of diagnosis.”

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The envelope please…

November 4, 2008

Braced for election results are not as important to a cancer patient than the results for an MRI scan.

I got my appointment to get my every 3 months scan that is 2 months on a waiting list. I am 5 months without a scan. I’m  negative? no. Am realistic that the pain pumping through the left breast where my original tumor was removed will show growth. I’ve noticed that my breast looks like an orange with deep pours. But no only my breast, but my left hand skin is also orange skin like.

I am trying not to be nervous, but I am honestly worried about my future plans. Can a Stage 4 patient have plans? Of course, but let’s not get to hasty.  I want to be able to go away for my Anniversary and  travel back to America for Christmas. This sounds reasonable to most healthy friends and family, but it could all be squashed due to this envelope giving the results of my scan.

Some scenarios are that I am locked into a radiation rooster that extends into my vacation plans. This envelop could make decisions to stop walking and opt for a wheelchair if my hip is too damaged.  Replacing hips and other bones are not options for cancer patients because there is nothing to attached the bones to other bones they just disintegrate.  Therefore, watch and rot.

I have already started to do my Christmas shopping early in case any of the above scenarios come into effect.

What else can I do? Buy a mini laptop or better known as net-books, so that if I am stuck in a hospital bed, I can still write.