Archive for May, 2008
May 28, 2008
She was not just so and so she was valedictorian of our class and disappeared off the map. Now by my good research skills and a handy search engine. I have not only found her but I have bird’s eye view of her house which is a bit creepy to me. I am not stalking her, just wonder what she is up to these days?
This was all spurred on by my student/aupair who is having people visit that she has not been in touch with since high school 3 years ago. I on the other hand have not seen my chem lab partner since high school 20 plus years ago. It is not like I can knock on her door and say Hi! By where she has moved she must have had an interesting life. But I just think about her now and again. She was obviously a smart cookie and made a way for herself in this world, maybe I am just curious of the details. Is she happy? Has she found the love of her life? Has she traveled the world over? Has she dedicated her life to helping others through significant research, like I HAD? Are we on parallel universes? So classmates.com does not help everyone find their old chem lab partners. I still get pleasure out of finding out what people have done with their lives. I am a big fan of biographies, and it is like reading a mini bio.
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May 26, 2008
To my “Coal Region” friends……
COAL REGION FRIENDS -vs.- “OTHER” FRIENDS
OTHER FRIENDS: Never ask for food
COAL REGION FRIENDS: Are the reason you have no food.
OTHER FRIENDS: Bring a bottle of wine to your party
COAL REGION FRIENDS: Make the pierogies & stay to clean
up afterwards
OTHER FRIENDS: Will come to your house warming party.
COAL REGION FRIENDS: Will help you move
OTHER FRIENDS: Will watch sports with you
COAL REGION FRIENDS: Will take off of work for a week to
drive to a Steelers away game with you.
OTHER FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr. and Mrs.
COAL REGION FRIENDS: Call your parents Mom and Dad.
OTHER FRIENDS: Bail you out of jail and tell you what
you did was wrong.
COAL REGION FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you
saying, Damn… that was fun!
OTHER FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.
COAL REGION FRIENDS: Cry with you.
OTHER FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then
give it back
COAL REGION FRIENDS: Keep your stuff so long they
forget it’s yours.
OTHER FRIENDS: Know a few things about you.
COAL REGION FRIENDS: Could write a book with direct
quotes from you.
OTHER FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that’s what
the crowd is doing
COAL REGION FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass
For leaving you behind.
OTHER FRIENDS: Would knock on your door
COAL REGION FRIENDS: Walk right in and say, “I’m home!”
OTHER FRIENDS: Will take your drink away when they
think you’ve had enough.
COAL REGION FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all
over the place and say, “You better drink the rest of that, don’t spill it!”
OTHER FRIENDS: Will talk shit to the person who talks
shit about you.
COAL REGION FRIENDS: Will knock the shit out of them!!
OTHER FRIENDS: Are for a while.
COAL REGION FRIENDS: Are for life.
Maybe OBAMA needs to read this, Hillary Clinton already gets it!
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May 20, 2008
What do you do with your “free” weeks? Is it time for a new bucket list?
I want to see the pyramids, Olympic games, and the great wall of China from the air/ground.
Or better yet, play with the penguins in Antarctica.
But I will more than happily settle for a concert on Thursday of the National orchestra of the Queen of Holland.
A ride on my new battery operated bike on Sat.
Sunday will be a family get together with cousins and share news of health and well being, not the normal bad news that has been occurring the last few months.
I am looking forward to a fun filled weekend.
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May 20, 2008
May is flying by and I am trying to shake out a new schedule. So Physical therapy had to change from Monday to Wednesday and Thursday night concerts that use to be a treat are now cramping my weekend plans. I want to get away but I know I will need Friday to recover. Traveling Friday night to the beach house is not easy for anyone especially not for 3yr old.
Just a few loose ends to tie up then we are both footloose and fancy free.
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May 20, 2008
The tickets are bought with a sticker shock that is exceedingly high. But we got the dates we wanted and it is too early to get the seats assigned. Can you imagine? I ask for bulk head 8 months in advance and it is not possible.
I am planning to send a Christmas e mail card to all on my address list, but that is also not possible. “patience is good business” says the Dutch.
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May 19, 2008
I had chemo last Wednesday and now on Monday again. Why? Doc switched me because of schedule conflicts. I said okay before realizing that my recovery time is only 5 days instead of the usual 7. I’m a bit nervous that I am taxing my body too much, but I honestly feel pretty good and after all the wedding grind I feel I can accept more challenges now. I feel good, even if my Doc says my blood is still “out of order”.
I am so grateful for friends that are helping me out this week. Because of the new time schedule on Monday I can’t be two places at one time. I Don’t Dare travel alone tomorrow as originally planned. I have a hero of a friend who is going to wait an afternoon in my beach house and wait for a delivery. I am truly a blessed human being. This positive news makes it that much easier to face chemotherapy today.
The joy of my brother’s wedding lingers on…
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May 15, 2008
That was the comment I got from my limo driver in America. Everyone asks me about my neck brace hoping to hear a happy ending. I said I have got cancer and it is inoperable in my neck bones therefore I wear a exoskeleton brace. He jumps right in and says he was a chain smoker who quit and 2 year later they found Cancer in his voice box and has been a survivor for 5 years.
I wonder if I am jealous. Not only of him but of others who have beat this dreaded disease. Am I so self centered that I wish for it to just go away some days? Or have the glory to say, yes I beat it!
Instead I get to watch every 3 months on a scan that cancer is slowly but surely eating away at me. One nibble at a time. I am grateful that the cancer is progressing slowly and I have much capability considering I have stage 4 cancer and there is no stage 5, unless you call death stage 5.
Or am I jealous because I would love to be the person that goes on those survivor walks, and raise money for the cause and to think about it as a bad dream in the distant past and to help others to get through this breast cancer. I want to say I am free of it! My reality slaps me in the face and i say that day will never come. “Don’t look back you can never look back” Don Henley- summer of 69
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May 15, 2008
Cancer is like that petal that is about to drop. You have to live in these moments, because they are gone in an instant. I just changed the header to reflect the love of my brother’s wedding. It might not stay on the site long, but it is constant reminder to me to live in the instance. Live for the single moment that does not cost money or produce a result. It just is a moment in time that needs to be cherished like music and laughter.
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May 6, 2008
There are two sides of your brain and a thin layer that connects them together called the corpus collosums. This seal occurs around your 7th year of age. Why is this so important? Rememberance is the simple answer.
How do get my 3 year old to remember me? Photos and lots of them. Small films over nothing and then what. Is that enough?
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May 6, 2008
The national radio was following the feel good, feel better. I backed out because I have lost my voice.
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